Test of Conviction...

Ahh well as expected..

When all goes well..

Sooner or later..

Something tries pull me down..

But not this time..

For I have now what I didn't back then..

My Conviction, My Faith, My Determination..

We'll see who laughs last..

Ay Hindi Pala Sakin...

Buti Magulo pa Utak ko..

Nung Nakilala kita..

Kasi akala ko sakin ka..

Hindi pala..

Buti iba na ko ngayon..

Tumitingin bago tumawid..

Kundi bundol nanaman ako..

WHEW..

Sayang talaga..

Dibale magaan naman ang loob ko..

Na iwan ka na sa kanya..

Kalimutan mo na ako...

For You...

As horrible as we were..
I've found that this world was worse..
I wish to protect you from it..
Don't get any ideas..

Tis' a cruel world..
And from what I've seen so far..
Even the purest are corrupted..
And the light is engulfed in dark..

But inevitably we all go through this..
through this tunnel, where there's no silver lining..
I wish you well in your journey..
And may you resurface as a better entity..

And not fall prey to the darkness..

What the hell have I've been doing...

Ahh the changing times..
Such a neutral factor in life..
Yet the only thing that is constant..
In this world we live in..

Which brings to mind the question of..
What have I been doing with my life lately?.
Well.. career-wise its been a bust, which it shouldn't be..
But this certain change has been all the rage recently..

Why should I bother with this?.
To indulge my self in this new fad..
Yeah i wanted what everybody had..
and because it was getting lonely..

Then I asked my self another question..
What were the other things you did during this career void?.
Its far from being bust a can say!.
I can almost say that there was a purpose why this happened..

Alas.. God has His intentions with everyone..
Just need to find where i belong and i will..
soon enough...

Peace in Writing

I wonder why I haven't done this before..

probably fear of judgment and criticisms even my own inhibitions..

but oh well tis never too late..

to write my fate with my own hands..

to find peace in writing whatever may come up..


Now is the time to unleash what was in my blood all along..


Realize..


Release..

ALA

I've long wondered about myself..
Why I ,think, Act and do things the way I do..
I have searched far and wide..
and all i had to do was look at my name..

I've always found my ways to be quite odd compared to others..
but i didn't have any problem with it.. i love who i am..
but i just recently realized after reconnecting with old blood..
that i was not alone in this world.. tis' a wonderful thought..

this is who I am, who we are.. ALA..

My Darkness and My Light

I'm at a stage in my life where in I must make a choice...
a crossroad if you may..one where there is no turning back..
but strangely, even if I'm still choosing, I've already decided
My path its so clear i can feel it.. My darkness..

Darkness is such a vague word.. for me it's knowledge..
knowledge that the world is not the place it thought it was..
knowledge that what I used to be has no place in this world..
My darkness.. is to say goodbye to my innocence and naivete.

Not to be melodramatic but i feel as though this is the way..
I'm not emotionally burdened or depressed about my life as some might think..
the truth is I'm happy with life right now and I'm enjoying every moment of it..
I have my experiences to thank for taking me this far..

I am happy with the choice that i have made.. this evolution will certainly help me..
help me turn into a better version of what i used to be..
This journey into the dark will definitely make me stronger..
and would aid me in the search for....

My light.. I believe that only in my darkest moments is where i would find
this supposed light.. A light that would never go away a light
that would shine bright and restore my faith..
What is this light? more accurately who?.. I don't know..

So come what may as a partake this journey.. I bid the past adieu and hello to tomorrow..