Green Eyed Monster..

a look, a stare, a gaze ice cold..

but bursting with ember jealousy..

as shadows pass by, none escape..

the glare of the green eyed monster..

possessed my young lass it seems..

unable to unbind.. unhook the latches..

an unwilling prey, no escape

from the green eyed monster..

try as i might i cannot slay..

accept and love, to trickle softly..

and cut the horns eventually..

my green eyed monster..

Lost soul..

I'm a lost soul wandering..

searching for purpose and meaning..

walking in the crowd feeling empty..

just what is out there for me?.

dazed and confused, wondering..

of buts and ifs never really trying..

just stagnant in the midst of it all..

to watch other souls just rise and fall..

walking in solace in between..

everything that stands, remembering..

what once was and pondering of what will be..

as i lay down and close the coffin door..

and as i wake wash rinse repeat once more..

New eyes..

New sight bestowed as i open up..

everything seemed new, different..

distraught but awake as i tried to shut..

eyes forced open with truth..

pluck them out as i try to digress..

from the awful truth, i try to suppress..

but to no avail as i am forced to embrace..

the inevitable truth in front of me..

accept these eyes and move forward..

to see and look over the horizon..

open wide and absorb.. a whole new world..

awaiting me.. as I look forward, onward..

Wake up call..

End time.. 10months in the making..

A violent shake up! a wake up call..

At long last.. to shed my childhood..

And to move on to greater heights..

An inevitable change i guess..

But well fought none the less..

no time to waste must stand up..

pick up the pace and wipe the tears..

no time to deny no time to fret..

suck it up for those who depend..

accept reality, truth and the end..

of a life that was and walk on..

fold up my sheets, be replaced anew..

Laid to rest..

Laid to rest my goal and ambition..

set aside the driving force..

that got me where i am..

throw everything away..

why you ask? why indeed..

for someone who has found the light..

its easy to be fooled, have blinded sight..

but the warmth it wreaks, all to familiar..

I think, I'll stay and lay to rest..

Lay to rest all that is against it..

to put out all i see besides my light..

let it go, leave it be, no regrets..

A heartbreaking choice none the less..

Oh well i say thats just the way..it has to be..

Forged..

I am not you I am my own..

Mistakes of the past

not set in stone..

To be copied

Reiterated over again..

I am my own I run my course..

In an image and likeness

but not a copy..

A great honor and privilege..

but will never be the same..

As I come of age..

I am my own, You are with me..

But I'm not you..

Physiological Suicide..

I'm Tired I'm bored..

Tired of being tired..

Tired of being sad..

Tired of the pain..

Tired of everything..

On the verge but i see light..

Webs of purpose entangle me..

Silver linings of the heart..

Shining, Gleaming me through..

I snap back desperately holding..

To these latches..

Embrace this symbiote..

Never to let go and unbind..

Only to save my state of mind..