misfortunes of a late bloomer...

unfortunately left behind..
with things that was supposed to be..
accomplished long ago..
now sitting in an empty room..
alone, clinging on to yesterday..

What if he did this? what if he did that?
questions left unanswered, things left unsaid..
Is it too late to make it? will trying be in vain?
still lingering on empty thoughts and chances lost..
hoping for that faint light of tomorrow..

maybe things will comeback..
maybe he'll do things right..
and deal with whats left..
for what once was can never be..
but sunrise breathes a new...

Pawning my Golden Silence..

Piercing words..
With much content and Passion..
Reflection of what's inside..
For no one, I will abide..

If you do not like what you hear..
Then you must cover up your ears..
For I will speak with no fear..
and be recognized with no falter..

My voice.. A weapon..
the good and bad, i bring..
paranoia and recognition i ensue..
and there is nothing that you can do..

A stand for a failing heart..

Face the fact that you will be fighting forever..
But know that we will be fighting together..
and wage this war for all of eternity..
and to breath our lives anew..

Helpless as I see you torn and weary..
From battles fought and lost..
A wish to stop surviving and start living..
If only it could be done, if only..

Waiting for that faint glimmer of hope..
As our demons close in and our hearts grow weak..
We move forward, striving for the things we seek..
Salvation.. Redemption.. Peace..

The end..

Point blank and helpless..
Held at gunpoint and defenseless..
What to do in this type of situation?.
Where everything falls with a wrong decision..

Been playing this game far too long..
Been careless, been weary..
Maybe, I wanted to get caught..
Maybe it's time for my run to end..

This was bound to happen eventually..
I smile as I've touched lives, instead of none..
Looking back, I couldn't have done it better..
As this era comes to a close..

When time is not enough

The world is crumbling down..
Beneath you, and you don't know what to do..
You cling on to desperately to things..
That mean the world, but only just for you..

The Past is gone, you're just a shell..
Your heaven is now a living hell..
Let it go before it eats you whole..
And drag you down a path unknown..

When time is not enough..
To get you through..
whats tough, and you realize..
Shes's not your diamond in the rough..

It's time to open your grip..
Let things flow out and slip..
It's okay to lose it all..
Go on and take that fall..

For in the end, whats true..
Will open up anew..

It's Just me

Everyday, a cold stare..
Everyday like wolves preying..
Wishing and dying for a taste..
Of a life not gone to waste..

Everybody hates me..
Everybody wants a piece of me..
Everybody wants to take my place..
I am their saving grace..

That bitter taste of envy..
Keeps Driving you crazy..
Every time you see my face..
But it's just me, it's just me..

So when you see A shining light..
In the midst of a dark night..
Don't let out a fright and don't worry..
Its just me.. It's just me..

à deux

My heart is broken in two..
And it's all because of you.. and you..
à deux is where i lie..
with this, my flame will never die..

There is no grace..
There is no salvation..
I tell myself, everything is fine..
Cause in the end, you'll both be mine..

There is no right, there is no wrong..
All I know is you both  make me strong..
To carry on and live..
Like nothing is going on..

I'll face the stares, the hate..
And judgement everyday..
As long as everyone is at bay..
Then this is the way it stays..

What I'm all about

Sometimes I sit and wonder..
Is there more to life than what I've been given..
Then it came to me in a flash..
A chance to be so make it last..

This is for the tears..
This is for the love..
I'm right where I belong..
This is what I'm all about..

You Lift me up, you hold me..
Mold me, shape me, to who i want to be..
With you there is endless opportunity..
The future is now and you hold the Key..

Now is the time..
To be something..
So, I'll take this chance..
And make it mine..

Anti - hero

A colorful existence residing within the gray areas..
the darkest shade and the brightest light..
never all or nothing, just "being"..
beneath everything and beyond the norms..

bends the world to his will, never obeying..
underneath a smile is a devious intent..
beyond the evil is a pure purpose..
driven by passion and exudes balance..

keeps the good wondering and the evil at bay..
equipped with all the right moves and words to say..
in the end will there be redemption? or destruction?..
as there will always be a vague conclusion..

Alam mo yun??

Ikaw! ikaw nga, nakakahalina, nakakaenganyo..
ngunit sa gitna ng lahat napipigilan ang sarili ko..
kasi alam mo yun? di tayo talo, yan ang sabi ko..
ngunit medyo iba nararamdaman ko dito..

pinagdaanan ba'y dapat abusuhin? di siguro..
alam nating di natin gugustuhin to..
kasi alam mo yun? ni di nga tayo magkakilala..
panu kaya yun? alam mo yun?..

hindi na ko susubok at di ka na uulit..
magandang patakaran para sa kaunlaran..
ng ating buhay, kaya't wag ng magtagpo..
at simulan ang hindi na dapat pang  simulan..

alam mo yun..

Look beside..

A failing heart,  a dying wish..
oh tell me how'd it came to this..
what once was sturdy is now in peril..
due to a test of heart and will..

I keep looking in front and in the back..
and getting confused on where "it's" at ..
never knew that it wouldn't collide..
and all i had to do was look beside..

at peace and never wanting..
come what may in all directions..
all my doubts and fears are cast aside..
because all i need to do is look beside..

Keep at it..

three words that changed a life..
from being bland and lifeless..
into something of much more value..
and saved it from what it was meant to be..

the world is an oyster go ahead and eat it..
but to do that you must open wide and break it..
as you pry open with bloodied hands..
you've learned to move from where you stand..

what good is a vision when you can't stare..
into the sun and hold that glare..
until you realize and understand..
that everything starts with your own hand..

consistency was the key to break the cycle..
of broken dreams and unfulfilled promises..
to break away from the stale norms and explore..
worlds of wonders never seen before..

consistency is the key.....

Sound of my Soul

A medium to soothe my being..

A tool to unwind the restless interior..

An outlet for the voiceless soul..

An entity to make it whole..

never thought that i would tread..

this broken road from before..

a fallen journey, a wasted effort..

has been given life anew..

as I move on to new places..

that I have not reached before..

I wonder where i have been..

and why i haven't continued before..

but there was no time to waste..

as i must tread forward..

to reach the goal before its too late..

and be doomed to a lesser fate..

somehow now it feels right..

to take this journey up in stride..

my mind is set, my goals are clear..

the only thing left is to adhere..

There is only one..

There is only one who can hold my entirety..

The one that makes a man out of me..

The one that laughs at my jealousy..

and embraces my flaws so happily..

How fortunate to be in your company..

Where everything is where it should be..

No other place to point my intention..

Than to your sweet haven and direction..

Nevermore will I divulge and divert..

from the place where my heart belongs..

content and at peace beneath your grace..

a presence so right I cant be wrong..

There is only one..

Faux hero

As i look upon the horizon, what is this i see..

tears in your eyes, a smile in disguise..

even though no words were spoken..

I knew that your heart was broken..

Try as I may I couldn't lift a finger..

for temporary things may linger..

and make waves with just an instance.

so here I stand and watch from a distance..

Hoping somebody will save you..

and release you from your pain..

try as i may it won't be me..

to take your hand and set you free..

it won't be me..

Tin Red Line

The presence was made known..

without any effort of my own..

the tin red line may be bleak..

but far away from being weak..

A spot marked and a point made..

An effect that makes me crave..

to stay away and not to care..

is blown away by a simple stare..

There is a tin red line between fantasy and reality..

and maybe this too is just a temporary..

state of mind, a thought to bear..

to fade away like it was never there..